So if you got to read the long 50 /50 post that was here earlier, consider yourself lucky. I decided that as part of the angrier 2010 tour, that I'm turning the page on that event, or at least typing it here.
The upcoming passages were going to be too painful for me to type and I've decided that I would rather keep it in and let it burn inside, fuel me if you will. Besides with the ongoing war, my training event pales in comparison.
Opening up Pandora's box is a painful event, and I've had no formal counseling ( could be the issue) but if I need more pain to heal, than fuck it, I'll stay wounded. The past is the past, you can't go back in time and change it and unless there is some divine intervention our miraculous event, the future is not going to change the past either. Since I decided to write more personal stuff, I've just about become a basket case, so to hell with that, I'm going to repress those feelings just as I had for all the years prior. I find a burning anger inside has a tendency to drive you to sucess, perhaps because you have experienced a huge failure.
I'm going to stick to doing what I do best. Observing the asshats that surround me and occassionally commenting on the world's buffoonery. No shortage of that.
Jurena..out
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